My great friend, Beth, told me yesterday to try and start putting some positive thinking in my head and maybe that would help.
I swear I’m trying. But it’s 0720 and I’m already thinkin’ that “positive” just ain’t happenin’ today. “Realistic” is where I’m at. Reality is what we are exposed to every time we work.
Last shift we easily could have been blown up when workers hit a 4″ gas main right next to the court house….where a majority of the clients take smoke breaks. I managed to piss off some court officers, several citizens, and a judge. They had no idea what kind of situation we were in. I told them all to Google “natural gas explosion”. Reality is, that shit’s no joke and it only takes one spark. There may have been 10 sparks that happen before the one who blows us to kingdom come.
This morning I heard about a 4 month old child died while in a hot-as-hell vehicle ALL DAY. The only positives of that situation was I wasn’t physically there and the other two toddlers with her survived. His little body was 110 degrees and he had gnats around his nose when our firefighters got to him. Reality is that people suck and we want to beat the shit out of them but can’t.
I had a fire investigation case, that I will someday blog about, where a mother killed her kids. Those sweet babies never got justice. The DA at the time was a sissy. That case has been reviewed 4 more time and no one but me has the balls to run with it. But because my title isn’t “homicide detective” I’m not allowed. Reality is sometimes you just have to accept what won’t ever happen.
I have a friend who is THE most positive human being I know. She is such a bright light of happiness and hope. She’s only 38 years old and she’s been diagnosed with Stage 4 Breast Cancer. Only a couple of months after being diagnosed she was bald and had a double mastectomy…yet is still the fun and loving woman. Reality is that cancer is a random beast that can kill. But it always kills way of life.
Then there was the “natural mama” who spent all of her time making sure her kids got nothing but the cleanest and purest form of anything that touched or went into their bodies. A tractor-trailer slammed into her mini-van and they were dead within seconds. Reality is that those kids probably never got to enjoy a sip of Coca-Cola or Kool-aid and they died anyways. (This is not meant to be slam against natural mamas!! They are awesome and should be proud of their efforts to keep their families as healthy as possible!)
I could go on and on and on with examples of reality. I have way too many.
I do try every day to see the positive in things. Positive and good does exist!! There is incredible reality that brings nothing but pure joy.
That joy is what you should cling to.